#gender sucks

[onejellyfishplease]

so you may have noticed that i changed my pronouns in my bio.

i have decided that gender is a scam :)

[lostdathomirian]

my gender identity makes no sense most of the time and i think im just gonna have to choose between lying abt my identity for the benefit of others’ understanding or being honest and not respected irl

[uncultureddoubloon]

Gender is a fuck and I hate it. Let me be genderless and non-feminine. No more feminine terms for me

[greenbileba5tard]

They them pronouns are too binary for me I need to be shot

[splatzzlive]

bit of a rant/vent cause i realised something

(skip to second paragraph for stuff abt my yt)

if yall didnt know, im trans. idk wth i am but i label myself as mascbeing (masc-presenting person just existing) and i used to have really bad dysphoria but ever since my parents started calling me my preffered name and pronouns (even if they dont when im not around) ive found myself almost competely rid of it. like ive stopped wearing binders because i didnt care as much anymore and partly because they were wrecking my body. i knew that being accepted by the people around you could help, but i didnt realise it was that much. my parents are really consevative which i didnt know until recently and they are seriously comvinced this is a phase even tho its lasted like 5 years but i somehow convinced myself they werent. after finally accepting that they dont beleive me ive been getting worse again. i still dont wear my binders but i get dysphoria over other things and i think i need to go back to therapy but my therapist didnt beleive i was trans either. she was a christian therapist and the second i mentioned wanting to go on hrt she brushed it off and sad "medication isnt always the solution" as if i havent been dealing with these feelings for five fucking years and it seriously made me hate her after all the good she did for me. wow i had so many more feeling than i thought i did lol this was supposed to be positive um anyway...

ive been taking a really long break from youtube for my mental health but it hasnt gotten much better so tomorrow after my exam im gonna record the next episode for my minecraft series. see yall on sunday hopefully with that video! <3

also i changed my pronouns because ive found i dont actually like he/him. they/them isnt super god either but i dont mind it much! id prefer if yall used literally any neopronouns but ive specified hx/hxm/hxself (said hix/hem/hixself/hemself), star/stars/starself and bun/buns/bunself! thank you!!

thank you so much for reading and dealing with my emotional shit lol

take care of yourselves, drink water and eat if you havent yet today, brush your teeth and take your meds, i love yall /p

[caramelapplesauce]

i say a lot of things that are like “wow you really are non binary” so here’s my latest train of thought: i would like to wear skirts as men wear skirts

[woahg-i-am-thoroughly-confused]

GRRUAGGGHHH I NEED A MASCULINE VERSION OF ‘IT’ I CAN’T THINK OF ANY GOOD WAYS AND THE LIST I HAVE DOESN’T HAVE IT AHHHHHGGGGHH

[cosm1cmicr0wave]

The genderless feelings have hit again folks

[apathyist]

everyone needs to know how badly i hated this.

nobody needs to know how badly i liked this.

[xoxobonni333]

i am afraid that the non existent crowd of people who see my profile will perceive me as a girl when i am in fact a very manly man

[lostdathomirian]

gender is so silly bc do i want to medically transition to be as physically male as possible? yes. will i be going by she/her still? probably also yes

[uncultureddoubloon]

Gender is a fuck and I do not need to be having a gender meltdown the week of a job interview

[bleufleurdelis]

fairies have no gender. i am a fairy

[periwinkle-the-11th]

I wish I was born a boy why couldn't I have been born a boy

[vanyabeam]

Related but also a little unrelated to the post, I hate how names are so gendered. Why tf are the words we use to address/referred to other ppl/ourselves considered markers of our sex?? There should be more women with names like Jay, Luka and Dave and more men with names like Anastasia, Layla and Rose!! WHY. IS. IT. GENDERED??? Makes zero sense.

some of the replies on the post I made yesterday make me wonder why it’s so hard to believe that someone can transition, realize that they could’ve avoided it and lived as a GNC member of their sex, but still not regret it or want to “go back”. sorry I don’t wanna pay the court another hundred dollars to change my name back and each government agency another thousand to change back my gender marker on all my IDs 🤷

isn’t it better that I’m spending less time worrying about how people perceive me or chasing an unrealistic idea of what my body should look like? I’m a PhD student irl, I have more pressing shit to think about than if someone thinks I’m a woman or not. I know who I am and what’s important to me, and that’s what matters.

[yamithedumbass]

-be me

-be Nonbinary

-figure out that he/him is super comfortable

-hate being called a girl

-refuse to use she/her pronouns

-long to have been born a boy

-only read gender neutral and female reader fabrics

-refuses to read any male reader fics

-?????